About me

Welcome to my blog I hope you take the time to look around. My name is Nicole, I am 25 years old and I live in Scotland.  I  have a bachelors degree in  Festival and Events Management with Marketing .I have worked in hospitality since I was 16 years old. I used to work in my dads restaurant for a number of years; until recently I was working at a whisky bar and restaurant as a waitress/receptionist. I have had some challenges to deal with over the years and I got through them and was happy enjoying working, socialising and travelling. 

 

Then I became very unwell one day when I was sitting the level 2 WSET course at work. I had never felt that way before it is hard to describe but I just knew that there was something wrong and it wasn't just a flu. It was months before I knew what was wrong, the doctors were equally clueless and it took a trip to the ER to be diagnosed with glandular fever. The months went by and I still wasn't recovering, I had seen a lot of different specialists that couldn't give me any answers. It was a very scary time for me, not knowing what was happening to my body. I had people around me concerned and others said that I must be depressed or it's all in my head. I began to really doubt myself, wondering if they were right if there was actually nothing physically wrong with me. But how could I feel so unwell... I started doing my own research, I didn't want to sit around anymore waiting for someone else to give me answers. That's when I started reading about chronic fatigue syndrome/ M.E. All my symptoms just fit and I knew that it was the most likely reason for how I felt. When I saw my GP next she also said that I was now suffering with chronic fatigue. Unfortunately it is a bitter sweet diagnosis, as the is no magic cure for it and there is still a lot that is unknown about what it is and why people get it.

 

My life has completely changed now. I'm no longer able to work, to go out with my friends, I can barely leave house by myself. It has been the hardest thing I have had to deal with. I knew I was strong but this has brought strength out in me that I didn't know was possible. I have to accept that this is the cards I've been dealt now and do the best I can until I eventually recover.

 

Nicole x x